“Ish-Bosheth did not dare to say another word to Abner, because he was afraid of him.” (2 Samuel 3:11) NIV
“When Ish-Bosheth son of Saul heard that Abner had died in Hebron, he lost courage and all Israel became alarmed.” (2 Samuel 4:1) NIV
These were very troubling times in the nation of Israel. A civil war had broken out after Saul and Jonathan were killed. David was made king over the tribe of Judah and the remaining tribes were in a terrible rebellion against David which lasted for a long time. This rebellion against David was led by Abner, who placed Saul’s son, Ish-Bosheth on the throne. But because Ish-Bosheth reprimanded Abner for taking one of Saul’s concubines, Abner deserted the house of Saul and formed an alliance with David.
Ish-Bosheth had no army and no training whatsoever. His life security was placed completely upon Abner. He was not a warrior and when he was suddenly abandoned by Abner, the remaining days of his life were lived in terrible fear. The source of Ish-Bosheth’s courage did not come from God and instead, his courage came from another man. When Abner was killed by Joab, Ish-Bosheth was left with nothing at all but his fear, which resulted in a whole nation becoming alarmed. (2 Samuel 4:1).
Ish-Bosheth’s reaction to Abner’s desertion and death truly spoke to my heart as I read these chapters from the Word of God today. As I am typing these words, I am learning just how paralyzing and destructive fear and uncertainty can be. These past several weeks, I have felt as if I am smack in the middle of the crosshairs of Satan. So many trials have been surfacing the past week or two, but perhaps the biggest blow has been the possibility of being faced with potential job loss in the near future.
God is teaching me through these trials that I must put my faith and trust in Him completely in all things. Just like Ish-Bosheth received his feelings of safety and security from someone (or something) other than God, I must not make this same error. I must trust in God completely and totally and I must believe that He is the provider of everything and He is all that I need. I must embrace the truths of Scriptures that I love and study so much and hide in my heart. I must ask God to help me truly believe that “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?” (Psalm 118:6-7)
Lord, I confess my sins and my lack of trust in You. I desperately need you! I have placed my trust in the things of this world and I have leaned on what the world offers as a source of safety and security for me and the family you have blessed me with, instead of listening to your words and trusting in you.
I know the truth, Lord and I have no excuse. I know that you love me with an unfailing and amazing love. I humbly thank you that you even care, much less desire to be close to me. You have constantly reminded me of how merciful and good you are, especially today, this day that I celebrate your glorious resurrection on Easter! How could I even think of leaning on anything this world offers, when I have you?! It is you who did not spare your only Son, but instead gave Him up for me – how will you not also, along with Him, graciously give me all the things I need?
Lord, I pray that you take this anxiety and worry. I echo your words spoken through the psalmist and I cry out to you, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts and see if there is any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way“. I give it ALL to you and no matter what, I will trust in you, worship you, adore you and love you. You are so worthy of all I have to give and I will trust you to do whatever you desire or lead me to whatever or wherever you desire me to go.
I love you, Lord!