Son of man say to the house of Isreal, ‘This is what you are saying: “Our offenses and sins weigh us down, and we are wasting away because of them. How then can we live?”
I remember being at this crossroad in my life; my sins were weighing me down. I had changed my ways; began to live a more respectful life, given up the partying, lying and cheating. We looked like the all American semi-dysfunctional family. A divorced mom of three, remarried with aspirations of having more children with my second husband, but I was weighed down and burdened. I wanted something more but didn’t know what it was.
I worked with a woman who befriended me; at times I would have told you that she was argumentative, stubborn and just a bit self righteous. But like sandpaper on wood, my irritation toward her little comments and questions began to smooth out. After awhile I wanted to spend my lunch hours with her and eventually she became a very close friend. I didn’t know at the time that God was using her in my journey towards salvation. Looking back it is so clear, but at the time there were days when I would walk out of her office with steam coming out of my ears.
One particular day I remember very clearly; I was sharing a story about one of my children being caught in a lie and the punishment that insued. She listened intently as she always did and when I was finished she gently asked me whyI had thought what my child had done was wrong and by what standard did I use to back up the punishment? I was confused and embarrassed. I asked what she meant. She agreed that I was correct in admonishing my child for lying but why was the child wrong in telling a lie. I answered; “because lying is wrong” to that she replied; “who says so?”
Hummm…she had me. I wasn’t a Christian, I didn’t read the Bible, but…I knew that it was one of the Ten Commandments…is that what she meant? I believe that moment was my first encounter with conviction. It wasn’t just beacuse of this one story that this occured; it was after several months of her getting to know me and listening to my stories. She then explained her question and said that if I wanted my children to know why lying was wrong then I would have to explain to them “why” it was wrong and “who” said so. In other words not just wrong in our home but that it was a sin and if left up to world view as opposed to biblical world view then it would be harmful to my children their whole life unless I taught them about God’s why.
Years passed and I accepted Christ. Would you like to guess the first thing that came to mind? It was that day in her office. That was the day that I probably said those exact words in my heart; “My offenses and sins weigh me down, and I am wasting away because of them. How then can I live?”
Father God I praise you for my friend and others who were your instuments in my journey toward you. Thank you for loving me so much that you placed her in my life to show me how to turn from my evil ways. Her name wasn’t Ezekiel and she wasn’t a prophet, but she was your faithful servant. Father I just ask that you prepare in me the foundation and heart of a faithful servant who will be an example and witness for others when they ask; “How then can we live?” In Jesus Name. Amen.