Oh, that my words were recorded…or engraved in rock forever! I know that my Redeemer lives and that in the end he will stand upon the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh I will see God; I myself will see him with my own eyes—I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me! Job 20:24-27
Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Matthew 10:28
There is so much I don’t understand about life… why good men die and bad men prosper. Why God creates life and beauty in all its exquisite detail and then allows tsunamis, earthquakes, cancer and human depravity (just to mention a few bad things) to destroy. And then there are the questions about the motivations of my own heart that I haven’t a clue about. Sometimes I feel the peace and presence of God with such clarity and other times I feel like my prayers hit the ceiling and come thudding down next to me. So just what is life about anyway? Why are our lives so fleeting?
I love the mystery of God and learning what it means to “follow Christ,” and yet the more I am at it, the more I realize there is so much I don’t understand. That being said, my heart yearns for God and with Job I can say, “I know that my Redeemer lives.” In my heart of hearts, I know this to be true. There was a time when physical experience told me otherwise, and yet his truth would not let me turn away. He is who He says He is. My prayer is that this truth grasps hold of my entire being and that I would let go of those lesser gods that I want to keep for myself. Be at work within me Holy Spirit. Amen