I read through Proverbs like a checklist check-up. How am I making my way through this world? In categories like godly, wise, fool, wicked … where do I fall? Who am I? I consider the godly and remember that if it isn’t perfection achieved, but a daily focus … I am that. And when I think of God daily, frustration mounts when my anger calls me wicked, or my running mouth a fool.
Who am I?
The answer changes depending on who you ask. I find as I read through the lines, I’m straddling them. I wonder how friends see me, and I wonder how enemies see me. Which one is right? Which one is true? It leaves me confused and discouraged. I find I’m all over the place–a multitasked life.
But the confusion leaves here: He has told me this before and repeatedly this past year. He whispers it again today in Acts 1:24 (NLT) as the disciples look to choose a replacement for Judas, they seek the Lord and pray, “O Lord, you know every heart.” I write the words on the notepad beside me.
O Lord, you know every heart.
Lord, I trust my heart in your hands. You tell me truth, and you pour grace. Make my paths straight–I pray my mind would be fixed on you and not distracted by the opinions of others. Yours is the only one that matters in the end.