The unsearchable riches of Christ…how do we tell others who have no inkling of the joy of coming to God with boldness and receiving the certainty of “what is the width and length and depth and height” of the love of Christ.
This week I went from being in a low place to being lifted above my circumstances in one swoop of God’s mighty embrace. I had been thinking that a promised promotion was imminent after much hard work on my part, yet administration has been silent. I even felt envy when I saw one of our leaders going to lunch with a co-worker who I know is vying for a leadership position.
Other issues were bothering me, as well, including a health problem that has dogged me for 25 years. I’ve been waiting for three months for news about next steps to take. Also, I have been struggling to meet an unexpected financial burden. It just seemed that all these things were weighing on me at one time and in a desperate moment of self-pity; I cried out to God that I just couldn’t take anymore.
Now as usual when I do this, I blubber on for a few minutes and then my soul quiets as I surrender my will to His. Then I get dressed, go to work, a little tired from my wrestling with my confusion, but calm.
On this particularly busy, long day, God surprised me with answers to all three of these (what I term, HUGE) concerns. I received a message from the director asking me to participate on a panel in an upcoming training (recognition for my work is always appreciated); I received information that a mistake on my taxes equaled over $400 in my favor (enough to meet the financial dilemma), and at the doctor’s that evening, he informed me that whatever I die from it won’t be this health issue that I had built up in my mind to be the cause of every ache and pain I’ve ever had.
Even as I write about these beautiful answers graciously given to me on the day of my tearful trusting in God, I wonder if others will connect the real truth. The love of Christ for me is not an unusual occurrence. His love, unfathomable and unsearchable, is nonetheless undisputable in my experience, but not unique to me.
How can I know this? I know His love because His Spirit dwells in me telling me about that love. Only coming to Christ and believing He is the Son of God opens our heart door to Him. I pray that all will cry out to this wonderful, marvelous God who is personal and who is relational and who is eternal, not just to receive His blessings and gifts, but to know Him intimately.
Ever humbled and grateful for His love,