Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails. ~ Proverbs 19:21
We’ve often heard of a “double-minded man,” well lately I’ve been walking around feeling like a “quadruple-minded woman.” I know that sounds tongue-in-cheek, but I felt like one minute I wanted to go left and the next, right. Then a few minutes later, I wanted to go sideways, then slantways. I could find “comfort” in my decision, but only for a little while. It wasn’t the peace of the Lord at all.
One evening, when I couldn’t sleep, because being a quadruple-minded woman keeps the mind fully active, I hung out with God and laid out all the cards and asked Him to show me which way I was really supposed to go. He revealed to me that I had “made plans in my heart” and those plans seemed right to me, but were not His plans for me. He revealed to me that I had married myself to those original plans and when they didn’t come to pass as I thought they would, I was devastated. He said that as a result, I was in a period of mourning, as a person would the loss of something very important and precious to them. He said that my focus needed to be on Him and that He’d show me His path for me.
Psalm 1:6 says, “For the Lord knows and is fully acquainted with the way of the righteous, but the way of the ungodly [those living outside of God’s will] shall perish (end in ruin and come to naught). Even though I’ve seen God’s vision for me, I was no longer on His path to get me there. I don’t want my way to end in ruin. I want God’s plan, purpose, & vision for my life. God, I want you and all that you have for me. Father, forgive me for each time I’ve stepped outside of your plans for my life, thinking that my way is best, because it seem right. Help me to walk closer with you that I will always be attentive to your Word and follow more closely to your path. In Jesus’ Name I pray, Amen.