I read of being chosen and loved. Deuteronomy 10. And I know I am loved. (But getting to this point were some pretty unlovely years. I think that was so God would let me know HE loves me.)
I read of his justice. Psalm 94. And I know he is just. (And getting to this point? Repetitious wounding and lives that went on happily-ever-after. In the hindsight of years, God shows me the truth.)
I read of details revealed so the message is clear–it’s from God. Isaiah 38:4-8. (This week I stepped into specific prayer with wild detail, and he met me there.)
And of anguish that passes through his hands, perhaps to spare of something worse.
15 But what could I say?
For he himself sent this sickness.
Now I will walk humbly throughout my years
because of this anguish I have felt.
16 Lord, your discipline is good,
for it leads to life and health.
You restore my health
and allow me to live!
17 Yes, this anguish was good for me,
for you have rescued me from death
and forgiven all my sins. Isaiah 38:15-17 NLT
Father, thank you for unmistakable signs this week. From prayers answered in unexpected detail, a message in my inbox, and a study that had me look back at the year and see your powerful hand in my life, to these very chapters today that remind me: I am loved by you; you are just–nothing escapes you; and that you are not wasteful–you put every moment to good use.
17 “For the Lord your God is the God of gods and Lord of lords. He is the great God, the mighty and awesome God, who shows no partiality and cannot be bribed. 18 He ensures that orphans and widows receive justice. He shows love to the foreigners living among you and gives them food and clothing. 19 So you, too, must show love to foreigners, for you yourselves were once foreigners in the land of Egypt. 20 You must fear the Lord your God and worship him and cling to him. Your oaths must be in his name alone. 21 He alone is your God, the only one who is worthy of your praise, the one who has done these mighty miracles that you have seen with your own eyes. Deuteronomy 10:17-21 NLT.