“Some, however, made fun of them and said, “They have had too much wine.” Then Peter stood up with the Eleven, raised his voice and addressed the crowd: “Fellow Jews and all of you who live in Jerusalem, let me explain this to you; listen carefully to what I say.” Acts 2:13-14
I am so thankful for Peter. His testimony displays the grace and power of God in a unique way.
Peter’s speech from Acts chapter 2 exudes such a boldness and confidence.
Where did this confidence come from?
This is the same guy who not long before denied that he even knew Jesus, three times in a row! The same broken man who wept bitterly because of his failure. I’ve asked the question, “What made the difference?” “Where did this boldness come from?”
I believe that it came from the Holy Spirit whom he had just received. Later in Chapter 4 he testifies that the power is not of Him but of Christ, and a few verses down, when the believer’s are praying it says that “they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly.”
But today I also see more clearly something unique about Peter that is precious to me. Because of Peter’s absolute and total undeniable abject failure, he must have had such a keen knowledge that there truly was no good thing in Him, and therefore he knew that he knew that he knew that the power was not of Him, but of God. He had been so sure of himself before, certain that he would never deny his Lord, but he did.
Maybe God was not using him just in spite of his failure. Maybe because of his failure, God was able to use him even more powerfully!
At the least I can deduce that failure does not disqualify us from being used by God. Peter allowed God to use his failure to humble Him, to reveal His unconditional love and grace to Him in a much more intimate way, to prove his own love for Jesus (John 21) .
This is precious to me because just this weekend the Lord revealed a blind spot in me in which I was seeing a past failure in my life as something that must disqualify me from being used by Him to the extent that He perhaps would have. I was applying the truth of the gospel and Galations 2:20, my life verse, to every area, to every sin, every weakness, every failure but this particular one. Somehow a stronghold had developed and I was blind to it. He started to peel away that blind spot this weekend and remembering Peter’s testimony only serves to confirm the truth and abolish the lie.
I see how He’s been trying to show me this the whole time. I’ll close with a small quote from a poem I read a few months ago that encouraged my heart in this matter.
“Have I no calls to failure! Have I no blessing for loss! Must not the way to thy mission Lie through the path of the cross!
It came as a revelation-It was worth the price of the gale, To know that the souls that conquer, must at first be souls that fail…” ~ George Matheson