Saul with a jealous eye. Saul with a tormenting spirit. Saul with a spear to throw.
8 This made Saul very angry. “What’s this?” he said. “They credit David with ten thousands and me with only thousands. Next they’ll be making him their king!” 9 So from that time on Saul kept a jealous eye on David.
10 The very next day a tormenting spirit from God overwhelmed Saul, and he began to rave in his house like a madman. David was playing the harp, as he did each day. But Saul had a spear in his hand, 11 and he suddenly hurled it at David, intending to pin him to the wall. But David escaped him twice.
12 Saul was then afraid of David, for the Lord was with David and had turned away from Saul. 1 Samuel 18:8-12, NLT.
David plays a harp, fights the battles, marries into Saul’s family–all the while, the target of hate.
24 When Saul’s men reported this back to the king, 25 he told them, “Tell David that all I want for the bride price is 100 Philistine foreskins! Vengeance on my enemies is all I really want.” But what Saul had in mind was that David would be killed in the fight. 1 Samuel 18:24-25, NLT.
Oh, the honesty. Michal intervenes to save David’s life. Saul’s response?
17 “Why have you betrayed me like this and let my enemy escape?” Saul demanded of Michal. 1 Samuel 19:17, NLT.
From that time on … truly Saul kept his eye on David with a single track focus of jealousy, hate, and vengeance–to the death. Insecurity and jealousy, anger and fear–they embed in a heart with a tenacious grip. These things contributed to Saul’s own destruction, though his emotions were directed at David. Is it that negativity towards another really destroys us in the end?
Psalm 59, a psalm of David (about Saul sending troops to David’s house to kill him):
9 You are my strength; I wait for you to rescue me,
for you, O God, are my fortress.
10 In his unfailing love, my God will stand with me.
He will let me look down in triumph on all my enemies.
11 Don’t kill them, for my people soon forget such lessons;
stagger them with your power, and bring them to their knees,
O Lord our shield.
12 Because of the sinful things they say,
because of the evil that is on their lips,
let them be captured by their pride,
their curses, and their lies. Psalm 59:9-12, NLT
Lord, when I find myself the target of verbal spears, be my shield. When my own insecurities put pressure on my heart, be my strength. In your unfailing love, my God, stand with me.