Day after day, I kept walking past my little garden of weeds. I was trying to avoid them, but I saw them every time I walked in and out of the house. In the heat wave of summer, pulling weeds is the last thing that I wanted to do. Pretending like they weren’t there seemed easier. I finally reached the point when I couldn’t take how chaotic they looked. Pulling them was tough, sweaty work. And even harder because I waited so long. But, I felt this sense of relief when I was done. Isn’t that how it is in my own life? I dwell on something or avoid it. But, its slowly overtaking my mind where I can’t think of anything else. It affects how I relate to God and others.
What am I cultivating?
I pray that I would pursue Jesus and ask him what is means for me to have a healthy mind, body and soul. So that I can finish the work that he has called me to do. Sometimes it easier to pretend, than to be vulnerable…or try and cover up the mess in my heart. But, God knows and loves me anyway. He desires good for me, even in the midst of pain. Maybe he is calling me to humility, like a little child.
Thank you Father, that You work in and through my weakness. That you are not afraid of it. That you always meet me where I am. I pray that your fruits would be evident in my life. And that I wouldn’t shy away from the difficult things, but look to you for the courage to face them. Even if it means, facing things in myself that I don’t like. I know that all things are possible with you. I am grateful that I have victory in you. Amen.
Amy(amyctanner)
Sixty-six books in a year 