When I accepted Christ, I was a mess! I was in the process of getting a divorce, I was fighting rejection, brokenness, and had hit rock bottom. My friend described it as being so low you have to reach up to touch bottom. That is what it felt like to me. I didn’t know how to go on with my life. I kept making the same mistakes over and over. Life seemed hopeless. I somehow knew to cry out to God.
1 I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground
and steadied me as I walked along.
3 He has given me a new song to sing,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see what he has done and be amazed.
They will put their trust in the Lord. (Psalm 40:1-3)
He truly lifted me out of the pit of despair those many years ago and he did set my feet on solid ground. We started our journey together and my life has totally changed because of his faithfulness. He asked me to trust him. It didn’t happen overnight but has been a steady build of our relationship.
12 Ears to hear and eyes to see—both are gifts from the Lord. (Prov 20:12)
I tried to go a different path once several years later. It was one of those paths that looks beautiful and draws you in. It wasn’t long before I looked around and realized I was going somewhere he didn’t want me to go. I had the choice to continue down that path if I wanted. I couldn’t do it—I turned around and ran back to my Abba Daddy. There is nothing more beautiful than Him and nothing worth losing the peace I get from being in his presence.
30 No human wisdom or understanding or plan can stand against the Lord. (Prov 21:30)
21 You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail. (Prov 19:21)
Five years ago the company I worked for was closed. I had been there for 23 years. We knew it was coming for six months before it actually happened. I would say that has been the greatest tool God has used to show me he is sovereign. I went on so many interviews and wouldn’t get offered a job. I don’t even want to admit how many times I was on the floor in tears wrestling with fear. I knew God was in control, I just didn’t know where he was going to take me. But looking back, I could see exactly what he was doing. For the year I was unemployed, I was able to volunteer at a food pantry where the people who worked there ministered to my heart while I was able to help hand out food to people in far worse financial conditions than me. I was able to be with my mother during her final months of life and I was able to be at the bedside of two dear friends as they passed away. I had planned to be back to work in several months. God had a different plan. When all he had planned for me to do was complete, I got another job. God provided everything I needed during that year.
29 The glory of the young is their strength; the gray hair of experience is the splendor of the old. (Prov 20:29)
Yes, there is a blessing that comes from years of walking with the Lord. I have gained experience through the trials I’ve encountered along the way. There is one mountain in particular that has gotten in the way more than the others. In my reading one day recently, I felt God assure me we would conquer this one area that keeps tripping me up (Acts 3:10). You see, God is patient. Sometimes there are things we hold on to like a life jacket even after we’ve been rescued. We know we are safe but not quite ready to take the jacket off. He has given me hope that this too will give me reason to sing a new song, a hymn of praise to my God.
Lord, I know there are days I take everything you’ve done for me for granted, and I don’t ever want to do that. When I remember who I was and how far you’ve brought me, I can do nothing but lift my heart, my hands, and my voice in praises to you. I sing songs with all the Saints—“Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” Amen