33 Jesus said, “I am with you for only a short time, and then I am going to the one who sent me. 34 You will look for me, but you will not find me; and where I am, you cannot come.” (John 7:33-34) NIV
I read those words this time and as I thought about them I felt my Spirit quicken. For a split second I had the fear of those words being true. What if Jesus couldn’t be found? What if I looked for Him and He wasn’t there? My Spirit quickened to remind me Jesus was not talking to me. I can rest safely in the knowledge that He is with me always (Math 28:20). He has also assured us we will be with Him in His Father’s house (John 14:2-3). Over the years, He has become the one dependable constant in my life. The thought of not finding Him—well it is beyond anything I can fathom.
He was talking to the Pharisees. They were the religious men of that time, the rulers in the synagogue. They were not happy with Jesus and his teachings. He shook up their world. Their nice, neat, orderly world as they knew it was being threatened by God’s Word Himself! They had to silence him at all costs. They had their beliefs and they weren’t about to change. They couldn’t accept the radical change of Grace! They were unwilling to accept He was who He said He was.
At times we cling to our false beliefs like a life jacket on a person lost at sea. Instead of grabbing Jesus’ hand and trusting him for truth and our safety, we prefer to stay lost. We ask ourselves questions like: “What might I have to give up to change? Who might I have to give up to change?” Those are scary thoughts.
I had my world shaken when everything I believed turned out to be lies. The worldly view of life I had lived so long didn’t work for me. What I believed to be solid ground was really sinking sand! There comes a point in time where we are forced to make a choice—do we continue the path to death (oh, it may not have been a physical death but my spirit, the very essence of me, was dying ) or accept Jesus’ path to life. The path to death was filled with regrets, mistakes, and a lot of pain. It was familiar. But Jesus stood at the other path with His arms open wide saying: Come! I went that way! Jesus’ path to life has been filled with love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control! (okay, the self-control one is still a work in process). It has not been an easy path. I’ve had to give up the “whats” and “whos” that were not part of God’s plan for my life. There has been pain, but it is the pain of restoration. There have been tears, but they are tears of release from bondages. I have grown weary but He carried me. I have wanted to quit, but He cheered me on through scripture and His people. I have had to surrender myself in order to gain freedom.
10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you. (Psalm 84:10-12) NIV
Oh LORD, my heavenly Father. Thank you that I don’t even have to spend a Nano-second thinking that I am alone for you are always with me. You are my joy, my comforter, my redeemer. You have lifted my head and given me honor as your daughter. Thank you for your relentless pursuit of me. Help me, through my words and deeds, always point others to You. In Jesus name I pray. Amen