How many times have we begged God to not make us do something we don’t want to do or make excuses for why His plan doesn’t work for us? Moses was called to convince hard-hearted Pharaoh to let God’s people go, but he tried to talk his way out of it.
“Then Moses answered, ‘But behold, they will not believe me or listen to my voice, for they will say, ‘the Lord did not appear to you.’ The Lord said to him, ‘What is in your hand?’ He said, ‘ A staff.’ And He said, “Throw it on the ground.’ So he threw it on the ground, and it became a serpent, and Moses ran from it. But the Lord said to Moses, ‘Put out your hand and catch it by the tail.’ so he put out his hand and caught it, and it became a staff in his hand ‘that they may believe that the Lord, the God of their fathers, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, has appeared to you.” (Exodus 4:1-5 ESV)
Moses feared reactions from other people, so he tried making excuses to not do what God wanted Him to. God in His mercy gave him a visual proof to share with people to convince them.
“But Moses said to the Lord, ‘Oh my Lord I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.’ Then the Lord said to him, ‘Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I , the Lord? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” (Exodus 4:10-12 ESV)
Moses had speech issues that made him feel unqualified for the job. God knows our weaknesses. He made us. Nothing comes as a surprise to Him. Therefore pointing them out to God does not make a good argument.
“But he said, ‘Oh my Lord, please send someone else.’ Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses and he said, ‘Is there not Aaron, your brother, the Levite? I know he can speak well. Behold he is coming out to meet you, and when he sees you, he will be glad in his heart. You shall speak to him and put the words in his mouth, and I will be with your mouth and with his mouth and will teach you both what to do. He shall speak for you to the people, and he shall be your mouth, and you shall be as God to him. And take in your hand this staff, with which you shall do the signs.” (Exodus 4:13-17 ESV)
Moses, in a panic, begged God not to make him do this job that he was afraid of. This made God angry that he would not obey, but again in His mercy, He gave him an out. He let his brother be his spokes person.
Like Moses, I too tend to fear people. Big cities make me paranoid and want to walk through them with tunnel vision, fearing that harm might come to me and my family simply because of thoughts that go through my head. And like Moses, I might argue with God that I don’t need to witness to people because they might reject me. In reality they would be rejecting God, I am just the messenger. But I think as I’ve grown I have less times when I beg God not to make me do something I don’t want to do. I am learning to pray instead when worry grips me. And I take comfort knowing that God still used Moses in mighty ways despite how he fought God early on.
Let me learn to simply obey and not allow my head to take over my heart. If You have called me to do it, You will be with me through it, and there is no need to fear or make excuses. Help me to trust in each and every uncomfortable situation. I know from experience that You are faithful.