2 Timothy 2 comes to me gently. The verses come to me with kindness and wrap round with hope.
2 You then, my child, be strengthened by the grace that is in Christ Jesus, 2 and what you have heard from me in the presence of many witnesses entrust to faithful men,[a] who will be able to teach others also. 3 Share in suffering as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. 4 No soldier gets entangled in civilian pursuits, since his aim is to please the one who enlisted him. 5 An athlete is not crowned unless he competes according to the rules. 6 It is the hard-working farmer who ought to have the first share of the crops. 7 Think over what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.
I ponder. Personal struggles rear before my mind’s eye; fresh imprint still shaped upon the contours of my heart.
if we are faithless, he remains faithful—
for he cannot deny himself. (verse 13)
Psalm 119, a prayer for my heart:
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
as is your way with those who love your name.
133 Keep steady my steps according to your promise,
and let no iniquity get dominion over me. ESV
Let no iniquity get dominion over me. I think on how I have been mastered by some; I think on how I have fallen prey. I think on how, through Christ, I can rise again.
19 But God’s firm foundation stands, bearing this seal: “The Lord knows those who are his,” and, “Let everyone who names the name of the Lord depart from iniquity.”20 Now in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and silver but also of wood and clay, some for honorable use, some for dishonorable. 21 Therefore, if anyone cleanses himself from what is dishonorable,[d] he will be a vessel for honorable use, set apart as holy, useful to the master of the house, ready for every good work. ESV
I have writhed in the hand of uncertainty that permeates so much of these days. I have struggled, and I have strived. Nothing good comes from it. It is the Lord’s faithfulness that keeps me; it is His grace that calls me back, draws me to my senses, restores me, offers hope. The beauty of the cross is much but one thing I ponder, always we can begin again through Christ. Begin again.
Your testimonies are righteous forever;
give me understanding that I may live. Psalm 119:144 ESV
Lord, a fist has clenched my heart and gripped my mind, and in that place, I am far from You. Your truth brings me back and restores with kindness, grace, and hope. There is no one like You! Forgive me, Lord and let me be a vessel for You. Amen.