“But Jehoshaphat asked, “Is there no longer a prophet of the Lord here whom we can inquire of?” The king of Israel answered Jehoshaphat, “There is still one prophet through whom we can inquire of the Lord, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah.””1 Kings 22:7-8 NIV
I have an excellent memory. Actually, that’s not true. I have an excellent memory when it comes to hearing hard and painful stories that I wish I could forget. I have to be careful what shows I watch on TV and what movies I watch because I can have images seared into my brain for a long time. I still remember the first scary movie I saw back when I was in my early teens.
I also have to be careful how much news I watch for the same reason. I can watch the news and be left feeling depressed and hopeless. I know I’m not the only one who struggles with staying informed with what’s going on in the world while not falling under the weight of sadness.
In the passage above, we read that the King of Israel did not worry about despair, but vanity. He sought the Lord because He was told to not because his hearts desire was obedience. He turned his ear towards the words he wanted to hear not the truth. He turned away from the truth because it was hard. In the end, that avoidance was his destruction.
In my desire to protect my sensitive spirit, I don’t want to avoid Gods difficult truths. I don’t want to only have ears for the truths of God that are easy to hear. I don’t want to avoid truth because it’s hard and sometimes it hurts. I want to lean into my God and ALL His truth. We do that by first seeking the Lord and then following His lead.
Dear God, you know my heart and how it hurts for the pain and suffering in the world. Your heart hurts with every hurt and pain that is felt by your children. As we seek to balance protecting our hearts and minds may we lean into you and your truth. May we seek you and find comfort in you. May we not avoid hard truth. Amen.