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Esther 8-10; John 13

It was November a lifetime ago, and I was driving to the library. I was weighted down by deep disappointment and grief. Sometime in preceding months, I had read Ann Voskamp’s book One Thousand Gifts, and I began to keep my own thankful list. That November day, I remember specifically the golden light sweeping across the farm fields, the flocking behavior of birds like a sheet shaken in the wind. I purposed to be grateful for those things in that moment, but I didn’t know how to be grateful for the broken expectations and crushed hopes in my life. I wondered if maybe the point was to be grateful in trial, not necessarily grateful for trial.

Jesus washes the feet of all his disciples.

Before the Passover celebration, Jesus knew that his hour had come to leave this world and return to his Father. He had loved his disciples during his ministry on earth, and now he loved them to the very end. It was time for supper, and the devil had already prompted Judas, son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. Jesus knew that the Father had given him authority over everything and that he had come from God and would return to God. So he got up from the table, took off his robe, wrapped a towel around his waist, and poured water into a basin. Then he began to wash the disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel he had around him. (John 13:1-5, NLT, emphasis added)

Jesus shares a meal with them (including Judas, who would betray him). Jesus knew. He knew his purpose. He knew where he was from and where he was going. His purpose was not thwarted by the destructive intentions of another–his purpose was propelled by them.

Esther found herself in the middle of a purpose–a time such as that. Haman’s destructive intentions propelled her into a purpose she had not imagined.

On that same day King Xerxes gave the property of Haman, the enemy of the Jews, to Queen Esther. Then Mordecai was brought before the king, for Esther had told the king how they were related. The king took off his signet ring—which he had taken back from Haman—and gave it to Mordecai. And Esther appointed Mordecai to be in charge of Haman’s property … 15 Then Mordecai left the king’s presence, wearing the royal robe of blue and white, the great crown of gold, and an outer cloak of fine linen and purple. And the people of Susa celebrated the new decree. 16 The Jews were filled with joy and gladness and were honored everywhere. 17 In every province and city, wherever the king’s decree arrived, the Jews rejoiced and had a great celebration and declared a public festival and holiday. (Esther 8:1-2, 15-17a, NLT)

Haman’s hatred led to his own death and justice plays out in an unexpected way: Queen Esther is given Haman’s lands; Mordecai is given the king’s ring and wears royal robes, a fine cloak and a crown of gold.

On Earth, Jesus would be tortured, mocked and crucified by betrayal in a crown of thorns. But he knew. He knew why he was here. He knew what was going to happen. He knew where he was going.

A recent reading in 2 Peter 1 refreshed my kingdom focus. I am thankful for God’s Word. It helped me to understand that God has given me all I need to live a godly life. God gives me a focus and a purpose, and while I still experience heartache and heartbreak here, He prepares me for a grand entrance into His kingdom. An enemy wants to see destruction–but God will use that to propel (us) into a purpose. And now I’m learning to give great thanks for the trial.

Courtney (66books365)

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2 Kings 25; 2 Chronicles 36

A siege that lasts two years. A famine. A city succumbs. Its king (Zedekiah) tries to escape at night past enemy (Nebuchadnezzar of Babylon’s) troops. Zedekiah is caught. The last he sees before his sight is taken is the slaughter of his sons. A city is dismantled as an enemy carries off bronze, silver and gold that had been used by Solomon to adorn and uphold the temple of the Lord. That is one side of the story in Second Kings.

Second Chronicles tells another perspective–of a lineage that repeatedly did evil in the sight of the Lord. It tells of prophets who came to warn and a leadership that mocked, scoffed and refused to listen.

11 Zedekiah was twenty-one years old when he became king, and he reigned in Jerusalem eleven years. 12 But Zedekiah did what was evil in the sight of the Lord his God, and he refused to humble himself when the prophet Jeremiah spoke to him directly from the Lord. 13 He also rebelled against King Nebuchadnezzar, even though he had taken an oath of loyalty in God’s name. Zedekiah was a hard and stubborn man, refusing to turn to the Lord, the God of Israel.

14 Likewise, all the leaders of the priests and the people became more and more unfaithful. They followed all the pagan practices of the surrounding nations, desecrating the Temple of the Lord that had been consecrated in Jerusalem.

15 The Lord, the God of their ancestors, repeatedly sent his prophets to warn them, for he had compassion on his people and his Temple. 16 But the people mocked these messengers of God and despised their words. They scoffed at the prophets until the Lord’s anger could no longer be restrained and nothing could be done.

17 So the Lord brought the king of Babylon against them. (2 Chronicles 36:11-17a, NLT)

While this may not be the birth of the saying, “Pride comes before the fall,” it certainly is another example of deceitful pride’s consequences. I wonder if one examines hardship or catastrophe, what would be the root? Even here, a list of heart attitudes that set a man, his entourage and an entire population against the Lord: refusal to humble; deceit; hard and stubborn; unfaithful; mocking and scoffing; disdain and contempt for/of truth. These thoughts are the birth of catastrophe–strong enough to not only bring down a man but an entire city, leaving behind ruin.

Lord, may I always be mindful of my heart attitudes, open to your direction and truth, and discerning of influences in my life.

Courtney (66books365)

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Judges 19-21; Mark 16

Now in those days Israel had no king (Judges 19:1a, NLT).

These are the opening words to a tragedy. A story that ends with this:

25 In those days Israel had no king; all the people did whatever seemed right in their own eyes (Judges 21:25, NLT).

The tragic story in Judges 19-21 didn’t begin when the troublemakers of Gibeah beat on an old man’s door.

22 While they were enjoying themselves, a crowd of troublemakers from the town surrounded the house. They began beating at the door and shouting to the old man, “Bring out the man who is staying with you so we can have sex with him” (Judges 19:22, NLT).

It began here:

There was a man from the tribe of Levi living in a remote area of the hill country of Ephraim. One day he brought home a woman from Bethlehem in Judah to be his concubine. 2 But she became angry with him and returned to her father’s home in Bethlehem (Judges 19:1b-2, NLT).

Whatever happened between them, I don’t know. But something happened, and she reacted. Likely, he didn’t count the cost of his actions. Surely, she didn’t count the cost of her actions. Catastrophe starts small, with an unchecked thought, word or action.

I sit with words, watching a scene unfold, grimacing at the abandonment (a host abandoning his daughter; a husband abandoning his wife; troublemakers abandoning all decency and mercy), eyes widening in shock as deaths mount by the thousands in a warfare of tribe against tribe.

I can look all over these scriptures and point out places where there’s fault. And maybe there’s something to their opening and end:

Now in those days Israel had no king (Judges 19:1a, NLT) … 25 In those days Israel had no king; all the people did whatever seemed right in their own eyes (Judges 21:25, NLT).

Father God, you are Lord over all. Be Lord over my life. Be Lord over my heart. Be Lord over my words. Be Lord over my actions. I don’t want to be right in my own eyes. I want to live right by your standards. I only want your approval.

Courtney (66books365)

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Joshua 7; Psalm 137-138; Jeremiah 1; Matthew 15

How hard is it to understand the hand of God in my life?  How many times to I misunderstand the elements of my life and miss the message that He has for me?  Doubt is my enemy.  I do not take the time to examine my own life as the source of my struggles and instead, begin to wonder if the Lord has changed His mind or I have misread His directions.  I am no different than Joshua after his defeat at Ai.

Joshua said, “Ah, Lord God! Why have you brought this people across the Jordan at all, to hand us over to the Amorites so as to destroy us? Would that we had been content to settle beyond the Jordan! – Joshua 7:7 NRSV

I remember vividly the first time I heard Boney M sing By the Rivers of Babylon. I was sixteen, in Germany visiting my aunt and uncle, alone and missing my family.  My life up until that moment was used to singing songs to God in the middle of the night and crocodile tears were part of my nights ritual.  How many times I thought that God might have forgotten me.

By the rivers of Babylon – there we sat down and there we wept when we remembered Zion.  Psalm 137:1 NRSV

This is why God’s Word is so powerful.  God’s call to Jeremiah became my call to intimacy with Him.

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” – Jeremiah 1:5 NRSV

The Canaanite woman’s expression of faith became my model of perseverance and of hope.

“Yes, Lord, yet even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their masters’ table.” – Matthew 15:27 NRSV

Lord, I thank you for the power of Your Word in my life and for the hope that You give me in the midst of my own doubt as to Your presence in my life and to the purpose You have called me.  Without You my life would be lost.  Thank you for calling me every day to a new walk with You.  Thank you for Your grace that calls me and renews me each day to serve You.  May I offer to You today my life that You may use me to glorify Your name. Amen.


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Numbers 12,13,14; Mark 14:27-53

It makes me never want to complain again. Ever.

Miriam and her complaining to Aaron. Oh, the trouble it stirred up. Her words announcing, “Unclean! Unclean!” complaints that revealed an underlying disease of heart, jealousy and contempt, pouring right out of her mouth.

And the Israelites, when faced with the ripe and juicy fruit of promise, resort to complaining, fret and worry.

Their voices rose in a great chorus of protest against Moses and Aaron. “If only we had died in Egypt, or even here in the wilderness!” they complained. 3 “Why is the LORD taking us to this country only to have us die in battle? Our wives and our little ones will be carried off as plunder! Wouldn’t it be better for us to return to Egypt?” 4 Then they plotted among themselves, “Let’s choose a new leader and go back to Egypt!” Numbers 14:2-4 (NLT).

Choose a new leader. Go back to Egypt.

I wonder sometimes if that’s what complaining is all about. Choosing a new leader. Going back into captivity of the familiar (instead of the freedom of God’s promise!). Doesn’t complaining imply we know better?

I’m reading a book by Elizabeth George, Finding God’s Path Through Your Trials. It’s a library copy, otherwise I would have underlined this:

“Just as you weren’t sure why the teacher asked some of the questions [on a test], the teacher knows the reasons for the questions–each one of them. And likewise, you may not understand why you’re being tested in a certain way: But God does. He knows that it will be for your ultimate good, that it will contribute to His purposes and bring Him great glory as you pass each test and become more dependable and useful to Him. Then He can work through you even more to reach people with the Good News and accomplish His will.”

Jesus, distressed and crushed with grief to the point of death, awaiting the mob and his betrayer, took his petition by prayer to God.

“Abba, Father,” he cried out, “everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” Mark 14:36 (NLT).

The NLT reads crushed with grief, but there’s no turning back.

No. No choosing another leader. Jesus says, Father, I want your will to be done.

Lord, I’m so grateful for these texts side by side, to see how complaining leads to ungratefulness, wandering, death, remorse. Yet, even in dire circumstances, your example shows we can stand up to the test. In times of worry, fret, and grief, we can take our petition to our loving Father, who cares and leads us through trials, to His promise for our good (even when it doesn’t seem good) and His glory. I want to trust in that (in you!) and not myself.

Courtney (66books365)


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Numbers 23, Psalm 64 and 65, Isaiah 13, 1 Peter 1

“God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?”  Numbers 23:19

                    They devise iniquities, … But God shall shoot at them with an arrow; Suddenly they shall be wounded. Psalm 64:6-7    

           Blessed is the man You choose, And cause to approach You, … By awesome deeds in righteousness You will answer us, O God of our salvation, Psalm 65:4-5

 ~ I pray for Your Love in my heart, Your Word in my spirit, and obedience to You in my soul.~


Numbers 23 

 27 Then Balak said to Balaam, “Please come, I will take you to another place; perhaps it will please God that you may curse them for me from there.” 

             King Balak tried to manipulate God to curse God’s own people by using God’s prophet Balaam. It backfired! Only the Lord God has the Sovereign Right. No one can manipulate the Holy Omniscient Omnipotent One!  8 “How shall I curse whom God has not cursed? And how shall I denounce whom the LORD has not denounced?”

             God’s reply to the earthly king was, “Rise up, Balak, and hear! “God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?” … “He has not observed iniquity in Jacob, Nor has He seen wickedness in Israel. The LORD his God is with him,”  v.18-21

             Oh Sovereign Lord God, may I never curse those who are the apple of Your eye! Keep me from willful and unconscious sins against Your chosen. Keep my mind, mouth and attitudes pure by Your Holy Spirit and Word!

             Father, thank You for Your faithful protection for me and all of us who walk by Your Spirit following You!! No one can effectively curse or condemn us (Romans 8:1). What a freedom of Love to be Your child through Your Son Jesus Christ!!

             Lord God, please bring more people to Yourself so that this world would reflect Your kingdom in heaven ever increasingly! I want to see Your Glory!!

Psalm 64

             Lord God, the wicked abound, but greater are You Who is in Your adopted children! Let me never fear of what man can do but fear You, the Almighty. The workers of iniquity plot evil blindly. The world’s news reports it without restraint. But Your judgment and condemnation on them is swift (v.7-9) and permanent. Lord God have mercy on them just as You have had it on me! Please open their eyes, mind and heart to Truth, to You before it is too late for each of them. Please change them into New Creatures by Your Word and Holy Spirit! I am at peace trusting in You Lord, eager seeing Your Glory!

 1 John 4:4; John 1:1-5; John 1:12-13; John 1:16-18; John 1:29, John 8:44, Proverbs 29:25; Luke 12:4-5; Proverbs 9:10, Job 28:28, Proverbs 3:7, Psalm 111:10, John 14:6; Hebrews 9:27; Revelation 19:17-21; Revelation 20:11-15; Revelation 21:5-8; Jeremiah 17:9; Ezekiel 11:18-20; Ezekiel 36:25-39; 2 Corinthians 5:17; John 3:3; John 3:5-6; 1 Peter 1:22-23

Psalm 65

             You Do so Much all the time!! Lord God, You are active in all areas of Life and Throughout the earth! The Lord God Almighty loves No matter what, faithful to provide, giving people free invitation to choose Him by displaying His Awesome Character incessantly!! Romans 1:20    There is no mother nature, but only God the Creator. All peoples, Your children and foes (Romans 5:10), receive Your benefits through nature.

             Lord God Almighty YOU: hear prayer, call flesh to come to Yourself, provide atonement, choose and cause people to approach You, answer us and save from hell, established the mountains, are clothed with power; still the noise of the seas and the tumult of the peoples, make the outgoings of the morning and evening rejoice, visit the earth and water it, greatly enrich it; provide the grain, have prepared it, water its ridges abundantly, settle its furrows, make it soft with showers, bless its growth, and crown the year with Your goodness. Thank You!! I rejoice in Your gifts! But I cherish You my Giver!!

 Isaiah 13

             Oh Holy God, those who cursed Your people You now curse, Numbers 23. Just as good and kind as You show Yourself in Psalm 65, are You harsh and merciless in Isaiah 13. And Why? Because after all Your kindness and grace, the wicked still choose to NOT surrender their heart, will and minds to You, their Creator and God. Deuteronomy 28

       Behold, the day of the LORD comes, Cruel, with both wrath and fierce anger, “I will punish the world for its evil, And the wicked for their iniquity; I will halt the arrogance of the proud, And will lay low the haughtiness of the terrible.”  Therefore all hands will be limp, Every man’s heart will melt, And they will be afraid. Isaiah 13  

             Lord God Almighty, Your wrath is certain. Your day of destruction is sure. No one can hide from Your mighty arm unless they hide beneath the Priestly garments of Your Holy Son Jesus. No one can escape Your fierce wrath in their soul or outside except by surrendering to the Lordship of Jesus Christ and asking to be covered by the Atonement Blood of Jesus Christ.

 Matthew 27:50-54, Hebrews 6:19-20, Hebrews 7:20-28, Hebrews 12:24, Hebrews 13:20-21, 1 Peter 1:18-19, 1 John 1:7, Revelation 5:9-10

1 Peter 1

             The Great News!! God protects His Own people from His Own wrath! The elected by God the Father are sprinkled by the Blood Sacrifice of Jesus Christ and sanctified by the Holy Spirit for the purpose of obedience to the Lord God Almighty! 

             We are given “an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven” for those in Christ Jesus.  We “rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory.” We have “a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead.”  

             So what are we to do about this now? While we wait for heaven? Be sober minded, and obedient to the living God Who transformed us and saved us from hell. I am not to conform myself to my former lusts but be holy as God is Holy! God will judge me according to my work with Him and without Him. I am to live in fear and love of the Lord Jesus Christ. I must obey the Truth through the Spirit in sincere love, fervently and with a pure heart.

             I have my marching orders: Blessed to be a blessing. I am protected in order to obey God’s Word and God’s will. Earth is not a playground, but the war zone. No where else do curses and blessings mix together on the same playing field!! After this life, there are only two places and the Deuteronomy 28 items do not intermingle. There is fixed a great chasm between hell and heaven. Luke 16:19-31  Hell is the cursing. Heaven is the blessing. Never the two shall meet. Matthew 13:36-43; Matthew 25; Revelation 20:11-15; Revelation 21-22

             Jesus Christ commands and compels me to pick up my cross, follow His marching orders, and be used by God to seek and save the lost. To be an ambassador for Christ, to snatch sinners from the fire just as I was rescued! Sitting around comfy and complacent does not bring God glory and perpetuates the evils within and around me. God’s heart IS in me. May it burn with desire and love for people to know, love and serve the living King Jesus Christ!! To be a vessel God uses to set captives free from being cursed. 

 Matthew 28:18-20, Luke 19:10, 2 Corinthians 5:16-21, Jude 1:20-25, Matthew 25:14-30, Matthew 7:15-23, 2 Timothy 2:20-21, 2 Corinthians 4:7-11, Romans 9:19-21, Luke 8:16-18

             Only two things are eternal here – the Word of God and people. I must live deliberately, Conscious of loving the First so that God can love the second well through me. 

Crystal (PsalmThirty4)

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