Psalm 40:12-13 “I know that the Lord will maintain the cause of the afflicted, and justice for the poor. Surely the righteous shall give thanks to Your name; the upright shall dwell in Your presence.”
I love speaking encouragement to others. Especially at work, I can see that pointing out their strengths and how God is working in the lives of my co-workers and the people I serve often births new hope, comfort, and an openness to God’s presence. I am not always that person, however. For it is also in my control to speak the opposite about or to all those who are in my circle of influence. That is, I can talk down to or negatively about someone which results in alienation or worse – harm to that person’s character or self-esteem.
Psalm 40:11 “Let not a slanderer be established in the earth.” That’s the power of words. And God’s gifts to me focus on speaking words.
I Corinthians 12:24-26 “…But God composed the body, having greater honor to that part which lacks it, that there should be no schism in the body, but that the members should have the same care for one another. And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it, and if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it.”
I prayed early in my Christian walk that God would give me one or more of the spiritual gifts that Paul described to the Corinthians. I wanted them all! But as I prayed, the Holy Spirit convicted me of the smallness of my love for others. I saw my need to have God’s love for others – a supernatural love superior to any human love I had experienced. No words can be uttered that describe or works performed by man that demonstrate His godly love. Yet, I wanted so much to be among those righteous ones, to be concerned about the poor and the afflicted. Now, I tell myself that I received the gift of love because I work with so many people who need mercy and support. Yet, has my life’s work become a badge of honor? Am I satisfied when others pat me on the back? The Book of James says, “God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” (James 4:6) I have a nagging suspicion that I get complacent and lack fervor for the things of God, especially outside of my workplace. It’s like I lose that energy and compassion by the time I get home. Just ask my family…
I do not believe in ‘beating up oneself,’ knowing that doing so causes shame, self-blame, and depression. This is false humility. But I do see the value of reflecting on the purpose and meaning of what I say and do. I do not really trust myself to handle the Lord’s gifts without some selfish reason to do so. In fact, my motives for asking God for spiritual gifts are often a source of concern to me. Am I focusing on man’s accolades? I hope not. What I really want is to be like King David. He was said to be someone who God sought for Himself, “a man after His own heart.” (I Samuel 13:14)
Dear Lord God, I know how to resolve my concerns about motive when asking for and receiving Your gifts by the Holy Spirit. Submit to You; be humble in Your sight; resist any temptation to speak evil of another; and most importantly, draw near to You. And there is confidence in knowing that as I do these things, God, You will draw near to me. Then, I can confidently operate in Your will and know Your purpose for using spiritual gifts at work, at church, and at home with family and friends. Let the words of my mouth be as “apples of gold in settings of silver.” (Proverbs 25:11) Holy are You. How gracious are Your words to me.
Jansuwilkinson