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1 Chronicles 18; James 5; Jonah 2; Luke 7

David fought battles, amassed wealth, and dedicated it to the Lord. Victory.

James warns the rich, whose bounty rots and testifies against them. Luxury or waste?

Now listen, you rich people, weep and wail because of the misery that is coming on you. Your wealth has rotted, and moths have eaten your clothes. Your gold and silver are corroded. Their corrosion will testify against you and eat your flesh like fire. You have hoarded wealth in the last days. Look! The wages you failed to pay the workers who mowed your fields are crying out against you. The cries of the harvesters have reached the ears of the Lord Almighty. You have lived on earth in luxury and self-indulgence. You have fattened yourselves in the day of slaughter. You have condemned and murdered the innocent one, who was not opposing you. (James 5:1-6, NLT)

I think long on legacy, on the generous hand versus the hand that withholds. The things stored up that moth and rust destroy. The excess that rots and corrodes. I’ve thought long on what remains.

A Christmas Carol  by Charles Dickens fast became a favorite story of mine last year when I read it with my kids. We later saw a live performance of it, where I nearly cried throughout the entire production, starting with the first words they spoke. And even last night, my youngest asked if I wanted to join her and watching it on television with her–and I did. Old Ebenezer was fortunate to be able to change the end of his story, but many aren’t.

Lord, I don’t want to waste my life by holding on too tightly to things. You are Provider.

17 Elijah was a human being, even as we are. He prayed earnestly that it would not rain, and it did not rain on the land for three and a half years. 18 Again he prayed, and the heavens gave rain, and the earth produced its crops. (James 17-18, NLT)

I pray that I don’t fear or hoard, but that I understand and act upon a wealth of time, talent, treasure, and dedicate it to you. That is victory. Not in what is saved and left behind to rot, but what is given and lives on.

“Those who cling to worthless idols
    turn away from God’s love for them.
But I, with shouts of grateful praise,
    will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good.
    I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’” Jonah 2:8-9, (NLT)

I’ve had time to ponder and understand a bit better what it means to live life poured out, after a year of emotional and physical exhaustion.

41 “Two people owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. 42 Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?”

43 Simon replied, “I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.”

“You have judged correctly,” Jesus said.

44 Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. 47 Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven—as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.”

48 Then Jesus said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”

49 The other guests began to say among themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?”

50 Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.” (Luke 7:41-50, NLT)

To know the Savior and know his love, to know he provides and cares for me, I can live open handed and not worry for lack–he holds my days, he directs my path. There is freedom in this.

Father God, no matter the day, let my praise always rise to you in thanks–in every circumstance. Thank you that you’re near to hear my prayers. Thank you for your love and forgiveness, your guidance and provision. You call me daughter, and I am held.

Courtney (66books365)

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2 Kings 22, Hebrews 4, Joel 1, Psalms 140, 141

ACCESS- A means of approaching or entering a place.  To obtain, examine and retrieve.

I count 11 bibles on the bookshelf next to me, 7 of which are covered in dust. In my head I count many problems I have been struggling to resolve.  How do I let go of harbored bitterness?, Why are those close to me battling sicknesses beyond their control?, How do I present myself a godly role model for my children without inconsistencies?, Why do I brush important matters under a rug believing they will disappear?, How do I justify not completing a project due to procrastination addiction?

This past weekend I attended a Chris Tomlin concert where hundreds of people were gathered to worship.  As I began singing I suddenly was overcome with frustration that I had not brought my camera in and was missing out on amazing photographs.  My selfishness in “needing” to capture and impress others began to interfere with my own personal worship.  I turned to a friend in the midst of her worship and asked for her to have the people next to her take a photo of us.  She kindly looked at me and said, “all of these people are in a heart of worship right now, we should not interfere for a desire to be in a picture, we need to be worshiping and not becoming a distraction to those around us.”  I stood there crying, not from being filled with the spirit, but from my selfish anger and although I knew what she said was true, I battled accepting it.

In 2 Kings 22 a scroll was brought before King Josiah stating that their ancestors had not been abiding by the words written within.  Instantly the king tore his clothing and wept before God as a sign of remorse and repentance.  A realization of disobedience caused immediate change within his heart and kingdom.

I have complete access to God’s word, answers  and peace directly at my fingertips, yet continuing to choose to neglect necessary attitude changes I will lose out on complete harmony and fellowship of being in true alignment with His will.  I also deprive others of joyful godly insights and become a stumbling block instead of a stepping stone!

Psalms 141:4-5 “Don’t let me lust for evil things; don’t let me participate in acts of wickedness. Don’t let me share in the delicacies of those who do evil. Let the godly strike me! It will be a kindness! IF THEY REPROVE ME, IT IS SOOTHING MEDICINE. DON’T LET ME REFUSE IT.”

Hebrews 4:12 “For the word of God is full of living power. It is sharper than the sharpest knife, cutting deep into our innermost thoughts and desires. It exposes us for what we really are.”

Father, help me align my heart, thoughts and actions to your word and not my own. Give me an openness to receive godly criticism and instruction as you use others in my life to speak to me. Break down my walls of selfishness and disobedience and replace it with a restored heart of worship and desire to gain full access TO YOU, THROUGH YOU.  Give me strength to not just ask for change but to make those changes and follow through on them.  Thank you for your kindness, love, mercy and rest. Amen

Live 2Love4Him4Ever

~Erica

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Genesis 20, Matthew 19, Nehemiah 9, Acts 19

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Genesis 20                 Now Abraham said of Sarah his wife, “She is my sister.” And Abimelech king of Gerar sent and took Sarah. … But God came to Abimelech in a dream by night, and said to him, “Indeed you are a dead man because of the woman whom you have taken, for she is a man’s wife.” … And Abimelech called Abraham and said to him, “What have you done to us? …

             So Abraham prayed to God; and God healed Abimelech, his wife, and his female servants. Then they bore children; for the Lord had closed up all the wombs of the house of Abimelech because of Sarah, Abraham’s wife.

             How Amazing is the Lord God to those He favors! You protect and orchestrate Your Will to be done through circumstances. Your Ways are not mysterious, but bold!

            What a responsibility I, Your child, have in living daily to honor You, the King of kings! Tragically, I can do incredible damage, even unknowingly, when I live self-centeredly, out of fear and selfishness. Please Lord God, have me live in Fear of You Lord! Fill me with Your Holy Spirit so that I will not cause other people to stumble or to not know You. Let Your truth and love be my motive.

Matthew 19                 Jesus said, “Let the little children come to Me, and do not forbid them; for of such is the kingdom of heaven.”… they were greatly astonished, saying, “Who then can be saved?” But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

             Lord Jesus, You remind me, again, that I am “just Your child”. There is nothing and no one that I am to hold tightly to except You. Yet by my human nature, You declare that it is impossible. But by Your Holy Spirit, it IS possible for me to cling to and live for You! Please enable me to focus and fix my heart and mind on You 24/7, Lord Jesus. To please You is to be my utmost desire. To hear Your Voice and do Your Will is my delight. To rest in You so I am healed and given direction. May Your Word drown out all of the distresses in my life. And Your hope and dreams be the motivation to fulfill all that You have planned for me. Daily, step by step, until years by years, and then for eternity with You and all Your other children! Zechariah4:6, Hebrews 12:2, Matthew 14:27-33

everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or lands, for My name’s sake, shall receive a hundredfold, and inherit eternal life. Matthew 19:29

Nehemiah 9                The children of Israel were assembled with fasting, in sackcloth, and with dust on their heads …and they stood and confessed their sins and the iniquities of their fathers.and read from the Book of the Law of the Lord their God … and they confessed and worshiped the Lord their God.

                … “Stand up and bless the Lord your God Forever and ever! Blessed be Your glorious name, Which is exalted above all blessing and praise!” … We make a sure covenant and write it; … seal it.”

             Lord God, I share their rejoicing in the rebuilding of the wall of Jerusalem! I rejoice because You have repaired many walls in my heart and mind with Your Word and Holy Spirit! But there are some portions of me which are tattered, torn and wounded. Where I have allowed “foreigners”, meaning influences, affections, ideas and patterns which are not of You, to influence me and they have caused me pain and, in a way, destruction. Lord Jesus, I desire Truth in my innermost parts. “Search me, O God, and know my heart; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.” — I make a covenant with You my Lord and Master. I will serve You Lord. Psalm51:6, Psalm 139:23-24, John 13:13

Acts 19                       And it happened, … that Paul … said to them, “Did you receive the Holy Spirit when you believed?” So they said to him, “We have not so much as heard whether there is a Holy Spirit.”

                And he said to them, “Into what then were you baptized?” So they said, “Into John’s baptism.” Then Paul said, “John indeed baptized with a baptism of repentance, saying to the people that they should believe on Him who would come after him, that is, on Christ Jesus.” When they heard this, they were baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. And when Paul had laid hands on them, the Holy Spirit came upon them, and they spoke with tongues and prophesied.

              Lord Jesus I have been baptized with the fire of the Holy Spirit. But presently, I suffer under being yoked with weak-believers, double minded ones. Let me not quench You, Holy Spirit!! Nor Grieve You, Holy One!! May I be bold in Truth and Wise in Love – as You grow me, as You guide me to walk a narrower path up the steep precipice by faith, daily. I am warned to Not seek comfort with man, but soothing and healing from You, Lord God, the God of Truth. Amen. Psalm31:5

              It is sooo hard, so non-typical, to counter society!  But I have no choice if I want Real Joy – Tangible Hope – And a Real Future! Strengthen me Father. I am Your child.

Into Your hand I commit my spirit; You have redeemed me, O Lord God of truth. Psalm 31:5

The word of the LORD … saying, “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward.” Genesis 15:1

Crystal (PsalmThirty4)

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