“O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand! You made the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.” Psalms 139:1-14 NLT
I sat in the doctor’s office reciting my health history. Thyroid cancer, acid reflux, anxiety… My 43 years were being summarized by this list on the screen. I battled against fear and repeated, “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” But, do I really believe it? Has it sunk in enough that I can praise God for how he has made me? Do I live like I am fully known and loved by Him?
“Let love be your highest goal! But you should also desire the special abilities the Spirit gives-especially the ability to prophesy. For if you have the ability to speak in tongues, you will be talking only to God, since people won’t be able to understand you. You will be speaking by the power of the Spirit, but it will all be mysterious. But one who prophesies strengthens others, encourages them, and comforts them. ” 1 Corinthians 14:1-3 NLT
I was ready to go into the auditorium at church when I saw her crying in the hallway. Another woman was there to comfort her. But should I stay and help? As I read these verses on gifting, I remember, ‘Let love be my highest goal’. If it truly is, than am I willing to be inconvenienced for the unity of the body? For some that might mean prophesying or speaking in tongues. For me that morning it meant noticing someone in need. Isn’t that what church is really all about anyway? Showing up for each other and being vulnerable, when it would be easier to come and go unnoticed.
“Well, my brothers and sisters, let’s summarize. When you meet together, one will sing, another will teach, another will tell some special revelation God has given, one will speak in tongues, and another will interpret what is said. But everything that is done must strengthen all of you.” 1 Corinthians 14:26 NLT
Thank you Father for how you have made me. That you give me abilities and gifts in the spirit. I pray that I would use them for you. Give me discernment and wisdom. Amen.