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2 Kings 10; 2 Timothy 1; Hosea 2; Psalm 119:97-120

Trusting in God can be easier when there are fewer choices. The people of Israel abandon their Creator God who led them through the desert for a god who offers false promises of fertility and abundance. Before long, they blend in with the culture; name alone distinguishes them from their neighbors. Baal is chosen over Jehovah.

In a zeal, Jehu takes up the sword and wipes out Baal worship only to later turn away from the Lord to pursue other gods. The cycle is repeated over and over again. Israel has this way of wandering from God when given half a chance. And what does God say of his people?

“She didn’t not know that it was I who gave her the grain, the wine, and the oil, and who lavished upon her silver and gold that they used for Baal.”  Hosea 2:8

Longing for his people, God is a patient, forgiving lover:

“Therefore, I will now allure her and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her. From there I will give her her vineyards, and make the Valley of Achor a door of hope. There she shall respond as in the days of her youth, as when she came out of the land of Egypt. On that day, says the Lord you will call me, ‘My husband,’ and no longer will you call me, ‘My Baal.’ For I will remove the names of the Baal from her mouth, and they shall be mentioned by name no more….And I will take you for my wife forever; I will take you for my wife in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love, and in mercy. I will take you for my wife in faithfulness; and you shall know the Lord.” Hosea 2:14-17…19,20.

This cycle of belief and disbelief is exhausting. At least the Israelites embraced their false gods openly and honestly. Me, my heart sneaks away under cover and sometimes, I don’t even realize how or where my heart has wandered. That’s irrelevant to God, He pursues. His Holy Spirit claims ownership of my heart. He is there to strengthen and fan into flame even the slightest flicker of faith. Read Paul’s words to Timothy:

“For this reason I remind you to rekindle the gift of God that is within you through he laying on of my hands; for God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.”  2 Timothy 1:6-7.

God’s will is not accomplished through my ability to get things done and done right. It’s by His grace, power and purpose that the work is completed. This is great news to this  Type A personality who quickly fatigues. I can rest in God’s sufficiency for “I am not ashamed, for I know the one in whom I have put my trust, and I am sure that he is able to guard until that day what I have entrusted to him.” 2 Timothy 1:12.

Lord, you are my hiding place and shield. My hope is in the truth of your word, not in my efforts or abilities. I long to love you with my whole heart,  yet know that I get distracted. Holy Spirit, have your way in and through me and let me rest in your all sufficiency. Thank you that your love never lets me go. Amen.


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II Samuel 23, 24; John 6:41-71

As a therapist,  I know the feel of flesh and bone, tendon and ligament, nerves and blood vessels.  Hurting people come and trust me to care for them and take part in their healing.  I feel their bodies change and heal under my hands.  Scar tissue is released,  muscles start working again,  edema leaves and pain becomes a memory.  The thought of bodies and lives being broken and maimed is repugnant.  Jesus’ statement is harsh to my ears, and he was well aware that it was going to stir up trouble:

I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you.  John 4:53

To me it smacks of cannibalism, but rings true. The reality of his physical body and blood  crushed for me is the very thing that my life depends on.  As much as I love and am loved by family and friends,  they can not save my life.  All the riches,  pleasures and knowledge in the world can not save me.  It is only by his grace,  his body broken for me,  his blood shed for me that I get to truly live.  Too often,  my life does not reflect what I know deep down, but oh, how I want it to.  Like David,  I can laugh a little at the obvious logic of my life’s dependency:

For who is God besides the Lord?  And who is the Rock except our God?  II Sam 22:24

With Peter, I can recognize the futility of looking anywhere else for salvation:

Lord, to whom shall we go?  You have the words of eternal life.  We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.  John 6:68-69.

Lord,  words fail to describe the depth and beauty of your fierce love for me.  How is it that I am the recipient of such wonder filled grace?  How is it that I grow distracted and lose sight of this?  Anchor my heart solidly in the reality of your love  so that I am not prone drift.  Keep me in the palm of your hand and may the thoughts in my head,  the words of my mouth and my actions come from a life that is grateful and does not wander.  Thank you.


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