For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me. – Psalm 109:22
I am a typical first born:
- achievement-oriented
- people-pleaser
- controlling
- fiercely independent
I have learned through “trials and error” that:
- I am not always going to achieve.
- I will often dissappoint others.
- There is little in this world that I can really control.
- Independence is an illusion.
God is teaching me humility. As a matter of fact, I think I am getting pretty good at it…. Doh.
The interesting thing is that when I thought that I was responsible for any little success in my life, I was stressed to continue to achieve more. Now that I realize that God is responsible, I am constantly overcome with gratitude when joy and success come my way. What a better way to live!
Dear Lord,
I am learning how powerless I am in my own strength. But I am also learning that I serve an all-powerful and all-loving God. Thank you that you are always there to pick me up when I fall down. Thank you that you stand at the right of the needy one, to save my life from those who condemn me.
Sixty-six books in a year 
I am a first born.
Guilty on all the above.
Finally…after 50yrs of telling everyone (even God)
“I can do it myself” ….I give up.
I can’t.
I don’t want to…and looking back I wonder why I ever wanted to do it myself.
I see slow methodical changes in my attitude and my life.
I am being molded…It feels great. 🙂 no stress!